okay, so i'm sitting here in the library, it's 4th and i have a spare. don't know where ally is, and laura's not here. maybe she's sick or something. i miss her... i'm quite sad that i'm all alone. bah. okay, so i'm quite confused about my love life and such. i like this guy but he doesn't like me, and then there's this guy that likes me, and he's really nice and stuff, but he's not the kind of guy that i usually date. i don't know, he's a great guy and all.. but.. i'm confused. arg. i'm listening to the beach boys right now, they cheer me up tons when i'm sad or feeling down on my luck. troy writes poetry, that's cool. he wrote this poem, and he gave me a copy, and i think it's quite good. A cardboard moon hangs from the ceiling in my room, basking out playful dreams in pale night. Shadows creep behind the paper light, always out of sight. You can feel their eyes prying, I always find myself crying. Hope I never have to lose this high. This breakdown of sanity has left me grasping for that glimpse of light to pull me from this world. Listen to that pleasant tune, drown out all the looks in their eyes, I get tired of always hearing lies. Wish there was some truth left to share. Hope I'll find a way out of this hole, I'm tired of always playing this lonely role. so yeah, i think it's pretty good. sad, but good. *sigh* i'm bored. listening to kokomo. "that's where you wanna go, to get away from it all..." how true. if only i could just take a vacation and get away from this place for awhile. "aruba, jamaica, ooh i wanna take ya to bermuda, bahamas, come on pretty mama.." okay, so now i'm dancing here in my seat. i must look a fool, but i really could care less. i feel pretty, something i haven't felt in a really long time, and i'm wondering, why are people so vague with their emotions? it's really confusing. ally thinks i'm mad at her or something, but i'm not. see what i mean? it gets all screwy when people don't voice their emotions and such, then sometimes everything gets confuddled, and you end up in a fight or mad at someone for a reason you think is there, but it's just a communication problem. "we'll head out to sea, and we'll perfect our chemistry, and by and by we'll defy a little bit of gravity.." hee hee. oh beach boys, how cute. but i need a smoke, so i'm going to go outside. see if ally's there or something. have a great day internet world! love to all the people who feel as though no one's listening. the one, the only, laura michelle*