my pencil crayons, my mixed cd, pooh bear hat, black bandana, straightener, shoes, my earrings that spongie lost, and i'd really like to get them back because my grandmother gave them to me, and they mean something really special. and no, i will not give her the pictures i took, because believe it or not, i liked having her as a friend, and in five years, it wil be nice to look back and remember that. besides, i took them with my camera, my film, and i paid to get them developed. i'm not asking for any of my pictures back, why would i? we were friends a while ago when we took the pictures, and it would be really petty to ask for them back. oh, laura, i'm not looking for a bf right now, and chris knows that, and he is not all i have left, because i have friends that none of the people we go to school with even know, and i have a few friends that do go to our school. but i just want to say that this is fine, i'm going to be okay, and so are all of you, because maybe this will be better to not talk to each other anymore, and we can all have our own lives without each other and we can just forget. not necessarily forgive, and i don't expect any of you to forgive me, because i really don't think i deserve to be forgiven. i've done a lot of hurtful things, i know that, but it is true that some of it was blown out of proportion. but i'm sorry, i'm the way that i am. there's a lot that none of you know, but i'm not going to say anything anymore because i don't think you need to know. you all can have your opinions and such, as can i, and we all can be better people without each other. and nat, i have your winter boots and your beatles thing. but i'd really like you to try to find my earrings, because they mean so much to me. but i'm done with this. after grad, we are all going to move on and meet new people, you'll all forget about me, and that's fine. because one day i hope i can forget this too, and that i will only look back on our friendship as something good that happened. it really sucks that i started all this, but that's how life is. people change, life goes on, and we all have to deal somehow.