well then. so my alarm clock goes off at 705, and i guess i turned it off, because when i woke up again it was 810 am. oh well. then my mum called at 844, which i didn't answer, and inevitably i missed english comp. meh. so yesterday i went over to chris's house, and we hung out with laura and ross. chris and i ended up talking about how when he's upset he 'shuts me out', although that's not the phrase i was looking for it'll do for now. also when he gets mad i feel so helpless, like there's something i could be doing that i'm not. we also were talking about how he doesn't know his family, and that it makes him really sad. so like an idiot i said that we could make our own family eventually... i'm such a dolt. then he drove me home last night, and we were just lying in the hallway talking about how we hate to be away from each other. i love him, i really do, and he loves me. this is hard though, because i've never been in love like this, and i don't know what to expect, which freaks me out even more. but yeah, it's really warm in the library, and i need a smoke. but, ha, we ended up smoking my entire pack yesterday. people need to learn how to say please and thank you, and i realy need to learn how to say no. love love love and all that jazz. the one, the only, laura michelle* p.s. i might be cutting my hair today! hoorah!