Sitting here in the library, confused as to what people seem to think. I mean, why is he calling me? I got home from the concert yesterday night, and my mum's all, "Matt called around nine". So I was watching tv for a bit, and he called back at ten thirty. He said that he still loves me. Yeah right, he's just lonely cause Alan left him. Doesn't he understand that we're not the same people we once were? How can you love someone who's heart you broke because you were too different of people to try to make it work? He just brought up all this shit from a year ago, and I ended up hanging up on him and crying for a long time. He doesn't get how much he hurt me when he told me all those things when we broke up. I was just so upset and such, and eventually called Kiki and asked her what I should do. She said that I should just forget what he was saying on the phone, and take it as him just being alone and wanting not to be alone anymore (I know how that is). He didn't mean anything he told me last night, and I know that. But it's still really confusing. Uh, I'm so tired of people and their strangeness, but what can you do? We're all a little messed up, and that's just how life goes I suppose. Take it easy ya'll. The one, the only, Laura Michelle*