okay, so i keep having these random thoughts. not good random thoughts either, but hurtful ones, about myself. i don't know. i mean, what's wrong with me? out of nowhere i'll think something bad, an action, or something like that. you know? like, bad things that i could do- to myself. that's not normal. maybe i should go back and see my councillor soon. i haven't seen her since the summer, but maybe it's time. i mean, i thought i was alright again, but i suppose not. what normal person thinks of hurting themselves in the middle of a conversation with their mother? i don't know, not normal people that's for sure. but yeah, laura's not here, and i'm with nat. sponge, if you read this, we're here for you okay? everyone has horrible days, weeks, months, but there's hope (despite what my current mood says). The one, the only, Laura Michelle*