so, chris and i were trying to find his friend jay's phone number. i had the brilliant idea to look for it on canada411.com and i found it. that's actually kind of weird that you can find stuff like that online. but yeah, tonight we might be going to a party, and tomorrow we definitely are. this is nice, i miss hanging out with people. i hope stephanie will be there tonight if we go to jay's, she's so funny. anywho, tomorrow i'm going with my dad during the day, and chris has to work. so nat finally brought my stuff to school, and left it at the office. but you know what? she broke my fucking necklace. why? i don't even know. it's a forty dollar fucking necklace from the carribean and she goes and breaks it. a bunch of the beads are missing. i was so upset that i almost started to cry. why is she being like this? the only reason why i was so mad at her is because that stupid laura henderson girl has my pants, and because i was trying to help her and didn't want anthing bad to happen to her, or her end up like laura. i just wanted to help, and now she hates me. i don't even know why. i love her so much, she's my best friend, and i can't do anything to save her, and she doesn't even want me to. so what can you do when people don't want you to try and help? i just want her to know that i'll always be here for her if she wants help, because i still want her to make something of herself, because she can do it. all she needs is someone to care and to get her out of that shit. sponge and pat know, and it seems they don't want to do anything about it. why not? i want to help so much, and she won't even talk to me or take my calls. i just don't know what to do about it. i miss her so much, i just want things to be like they were before. i just want to help, and i don't even know how. the one, the only, laura michelle*