ack! i hate being sick. i even cancelled work yesterday because i was so sick. but then my friends came over, and we smoked some stuff. but then i was listening to blink 182, and i just couldn't stop thinking. it's weird how it makes you feel stuff more intently. but then i was thinking about this person from a while back, and i ended up calling them. it's so stupid how you can stop being friends for such a long time, for reasons both of you thought but that were wrong, and then start being friends again. it's funny because i thought that this person just didn't want to talk to me anymore, and they thought that i was mad at them for not calling and such. but now it's all okay, and we're friends again. i had forgotten how much people mean to me. i just thought to myself, "it's okay that no one is good friends with me anymore, i don't need people". but i was wrong. it's upsetting how everything is so different, but it's also a good thing because the only way to grow is for things to change. but then things that had changed are going back to normal. i'm friends with my group of pals from grade nine and ten, that all live in st. james because they called me and we hung out and it was awesome, and then i end up calling other people and reconnecting. it's fantastic how things are going right now. i missed these people so incredibly much, and i didn't know how much i missed them until we started talking again. isn't that the way that things work though? you don't realize you need something until it's not there anymore, and then once you have it back, you know that you'd do anything to make it better and for things to be good again. so yeah, i'm happy right now, which is a feat in itself. but now i should really be working on my psych homework. so, people, take the time to look around and take stock of what you have in your life right now. you never know how much things mean until they're gone. the one, the only, laura michelle* okay, it's the end of third, and i'm really bored. so i decided to write some more. hmm, about what though? oh, i think this guy is really cute, but i'm not in the right place for a relationship right now. he's nice too, and he thinks i'm pretty. woot. but what to do about it? i don't want to hurt someone because i'm screwy, but then again, he's nice and he's a sweetheart, and well, what to do? i really don't know. i won't do anything i guess, because i don't want to fuck anyone else up. i feel so mellow right now, and i don't know why. but it's good. the not good thing is that i'm forgetting stuff already, which used to happen to me all the time when i was hanging out with jason and getting high all the time. oh well. but yeah, the damn librarian said that the library is closing, so i guess i'll slowly make my way to choir, ever so slowly because i walk at a turtle's pace. ha. gots to love the turtle-ness. the one, the only, laura michelle*