Well now, here I am again. Bored silly with no one to talk to because I'm a jerk on yet another day in everyone's eyes. Oh well, that's the way it goes. "Livin life, might take it slow. I make mistakes, but oh that's the way it goes. I just know what I know and I know it day by day by day by day..." Yesterday, well, did nothing really. Watched tv and listened to records 'cause there's nothing ever to do here in Winnipeg anyhow. Brandi almost hit a deer! She was on the perimeter, and this deer ran out in front of her car and she slammed on the brakes. She missed it, thankfully, but now she has whiplash or whatever. Poor kid, whiplash sucks. Ugh, I am so blase about life right now. Nothing's the way it was, won't ever be that way again, and it's my fault mostly I'll admit that, but what can you do? You can only say sorry so many times before it loses it's meaning, right? Although, I am trying. I just can't deal right now. I have no coping skills left in my little bag of tricks. So, the only way I know how to cope is to close myself off so I don't have to deal with anything at all. I don't even know if that makes sense. i doubt it. So tired. Not just physically, but just tired all the way around. "There could be countless reasons tension rules this house, that it does goes without saying and without doubt." Stacey keeps asking me if I cut my hair, and she thinks I'm lying when I say I haven't. What a crazy kid. I haven't cut it in months, but meh. Maybe it just looks different today or something. oh upbeat jazzy-pop music, how you cheer me up. "Late night, boozing.. Oh I'm out of control. Red lights, cruising.. I got no sense of soul. I knew, you knew, hey we both knew the crime. Oh makin' it work, takes a little longer, makin' it work... takes a little time." has anyone ever heard of Doug and the Slugs? They're cool, ya'll should check them out, they're awesome! "Darlin'.. pow-pow, you pack a pretty punch.." Ha, too cute. "You helped me believe that I could believe in myself. You helped me achieve what I could with nobody else..." I'm actually feeling better kinda, so yeah. Writing out lifes problems and dilemmas always seems to make you feel better and feel more normal. Although, I am far from the social norm. The one, the only, Laura Michelle*