and so, nothing to write about. nattie, my phone is still disconnected, probably until saturday, but i'll pop bye tomorrow sometime. you're free after 5, right? yeah. so, we bought a subwoofer for my car, and swapped the sound system. cool. meh. (picture me talking in a monotone voice, ala morrison drama class, that's my mood) everything was fine, i was watching ugly betty, talking to chris's mum about danielle steel books (i'm reading the long road home, ha!) and yeah, good stuff. then, who shows up? and it's only thursday, not even a card night. so anyways, conversation abandoned, have to move so corie can sit, and i can't even watch the rest of the show. anyways... "how's the job search?" blah. chris says something about me trying to get a better position, like assistant manager somewhere. auntie debbie says "you'll never get it, they won't hire you because your not qualified in the slightest" what? i know all the crap they have to do, i've done accounting for christ sake. no one stands up for me, no one says they'd hire me to train me, cause no one's born an assistant manager. chris goes outside, so no help there, i'm left alone standing there like an idiot, unwanted in this stupid family. even gary said i'd be good at it, when i applied at a bunch of places, but he just sits there, not saying anything. i feel like utter shit, and now i'm crying because a few people don't want me here. tough shell my ass. i just want to go home, spend my night with my book and my dogs and say too hell with them all. stupid everything. people are so mean. the one, the only, laura michelle*