Soo today kinda sucked

And I have noo idea what to do.

Just feels like I was someone that you needed but I couldn't be it, =/, just cause somethings you said today, like the thing about your grandfather, made me think that I wasn't someone that you needed, but I tried my hardest.

But yeahh, you are really someone I want, and I'm going to wait for you, no matter how much you don't want me to, there is a chance we might not get together, but theres a chance we could, so thats what I'm holding onto, until you make it apparent you want me to give up or you get another guy.

I'm just confused. Time for happy timeee.

EDIT:

I talked to an old ex of mine, one that I treated incredibly bad, yet she accepted my apology like I did not thing wrong, and we were talking for a while and she has a new guy in her life, and I'm happy for her, and she really knows where I'm coming from cause she feels the same way about him I did about someone, but yeah. Not trying to make you feel bad, but I always go through these cycles where I'm just completely alone, I just think I was someone who was ment to be alone, I think I was ment for something pretty damn good, but at great sacrifice, which is just to be alone. Maybe one day we'll talk in that way again, I'm hoping for that, but I really doubt it, I'm still waiting because my hope is holding on by just a thread that maybe I'm wrong, but hey, never know. I have no idea what I'm saying anymore I'm just rambling on, buh bye.