Today was pretty chill, hung out with my neighbor and her boyfriend, just played chess and chilled out, ripped 2 phone books in half, pretty siked bout that I found out shes an ex porn star too, didn't see that coming. I'm feelin pretty good about everything right now, it feels like its a movie and everything, where everything was at shit and now it's finally coming back together for me, something might not come back together for me, but, at least I got a friend out of it, a really good and great friend, shes pretty much amazing, and if I can't have her as a girlfriend I'mma have her as my best friend. But bottom line, I'm feelin great, I had an amazing day, and I'm gonna have an amazing night too, it's gonna be pretty chill. Nothin really going on in the love department, that place is closed down for now, it not that it doesn't feel like I can't have a relationship, I just don't want one, like not because I'm not ready, but, I just don't want one, only one person could dissuade me from that, but whatever, it's all good with me and her finally :). And I'm not gonna mess that up by trying to get with her, so I'mma just keep supporting her, even if she is with another guy I'd still help her out. Yeah, a year or two ago if I saw myself helping a girl I wanted to be with with another guy, I'd probably just be like what the hell, but, I just really care and want her to be happy, I'm pretty damn happy, so I just wanna make sure she is, and if that means by not being with me, then, shes not gonna be with me plain and simple. Even with all that said, it hasn't brought me down at all, I'm just feeling really good about myself, and everything, and me and her. But when I talk to her on the phone, about anything, I still get that special feeling I always got when I talked to her on the phone in the past, just instantly makes me feel 100 times better, shes amazing :). So, lets start the night!