I just looked at near my bed, there's still a box there, full of her presents, yet she doesn't want em. What a waste of money. I think that when someone won't accept a present from you, it's a testament of yourself as a person to them. AKA, they hate you, but, oh well, I'll be gone jan 7th anyways (ship out date had to be pushed back, due to recruiter bullshit), speaking of the army anyways. My job is finalized, my dates are finalized, everything is good. The lowest I could enlist for my job, is 5 years, and no signing bonus. Doesn't matter to me, it will be a job I enjoy, and after 2-3 years, if I don't like it, I can re-class to another job. I'll be training for 8 STRAIGHT months, no leave after basic or AIT or anything, just straight. But the cool thing, I already have E-2 in the books, (private first class), so I'll already be ahead, and if I refer someone, I get E-3 (corporal), so, that's cool. I also get to go to airborne school, but, what sucks is, I'll be in Georgia, in August, training, but hey it's worth it, I'll get an airborne badge, and badge for my uniform, and an extra 150 bucks a month. I'm excited, but scared. But, I am happy for myself, finally, I finally get to make something of myself, I have my job solidified, and I get a degree in it just by completing the training, and I can go straight to a civilian job after I get out, if I decide to get out, and I have a guaranteed interview with a company of my choice for after I get out. I'm fucking set. And after I get out of training, I'll have over 12,000 bucks waiting for me in my bank account. I'm just still wondering, did I make the right choice, did I do the right thing? Well, I'm sure when I'm over in Iraq or Afghanistan. And some bearded douchebag is shooting at me, the answer will come to me. But, happy, I feel wanted, I told someone all this, and she said that she doesn't want me to leave be out of her life at all, so, maybe I will have that certain someone that sticks with me from day 1 to my deployment, to when I come back, lets see. I swear in on monday. Whoever wants to come see me swear in, can come, I really hope the people that I really care about show up to see, I've already been asking a few people, because it's not like graduating training, it's just the one and only time throughout your entire military career, it's a very moving thing to see, I wish everyone could see it, people brave enough to vow themselves to something much bigger then themselves, and I am proud to finally be a part of that. I can finally have something about myself that I'll be proud of, for the rest of my life. Not to mention, I'm gonna get freakin ripped just from basic too :).