So, went to have lunch today at my dads work, free catered lunch and everything, I made off with a ton of food, but anyways. Being here just brings back a ton of memories, specifically about her, I just remember always going on break to text her a bunch, and just texting her the entire time I was at work, and then she'd come and pick me up, or come by and bring me lunch, it was pretty much amazing. Like, I've been kind of pissed at her the last few days but coming here just reminds me of everything during summer, going to lunch with her, driving to my secret spots just because, seeing the dark knight three times with her, and a bunch of other amazing things, some I probably shouldn't write in here, haha. But anyways, like I've just realized that, I've moved on from everything that has happened with me and her, but I'm not over her, it's like one of those dormant things, where it doesn't get in the way with me dating other girls, and day to day life, it's just something in the back of my head where it's like, the most amazing girl got away from me. But anyways, I'm just sad now because she doesn't even want t talk to me, and I knew if we stopped talking, which was for the better, that this would happen, that we'd be talking less and less until we almost never talked again. Like, I believe what she does, where if it's meant to happen it will, but I also believe that, if you WANT it to happen, you have to put in some effort, the universe may set out a path for you, which was the path you were meant to walk, but you still have to walk it yourself, and set it up yourself, but yeah, I'm just sad that we don't talk anymore, and she doesn't even wanna go to dinner with me, but, I guess it's how it's going to be, nothing I can do, just accept it, and it breaks my heart but I do. But, at least I have the most amazing memories ever, I was having the worst summer in a long time, and she went and made it one of the best, and I'll always remember that, and all the amazing things she did for me and gave to me, and I'll always remember that amazing kiss she gave to me that one day. So, I just wanted to square all this away with myself, I'm not mad at her or anything anymore, and I miss her, but I guess this is the way it has to be, even though shes the best memory I have at this point in my life, and I hope that means something to her. i feel so peculiar, i don't know what to say. but don't let me fool you... i'm not one bit afraid, no way. one thing's for sure, what i would I give to simply open the door and see your smiling face. Hello, hello, won't you come right in? i'd give anything just to see you again. Hello, hello, won't you come right in, step into my world where you know you're everything... everything i need. i'm suddenly hopeful whenever you're in sight, that's right. i talk about you all day; i whisper your name at night. whatever you need, well i'd give it, you should ask it of me, to make you feel complete. Hello, hello... i feel so peculiar, i feel so strange...