Well, I have a pile of assignment and shit I could be doing but I have that much crap running through my head at the moment I can't concentrate. There's so much shit happening again...Its like everything will be fine and all at once everything happens....Pisses me off....
I got with this guy last week, I still havent heard from him. Maybe he just doesnt have any credit, i was hoping that might be it but I think he just wanted sum sex, he got it and doesnt intend on talking to me until the next time he wants some....It was good while it lasted, I just liked the feeling again of bein able to lie there in somones arms, its so good...I felt like nothin else mattered...I dont really have any feelings for him...Its just more of a physical attraction than anything else, it was just nice not to feel so alone...That probably sounds pathetic but I don't know how else to explain it...
As for the guy that was going away, I came to the conclusion the other night that he go to hell after our conversation...I hadn't talked to him for a week and this is how it went....
Me: hey
Him: Hey
Me: how r u
him: good, u
me: alright
Me: I haven't talked to u for awhile
Him: Maybe I havent felt like talking to u...
Me: um alright....
Him: Maybe I've more important things to do than talk to you
Me: um ok
*silence*
Me: I never said u didnt
*silence*
Me: Well obviously you have more important things to do now than talk to me so I'll go *in my sarcastic voice*
Him: yup good
*I hung up*
So that was great, just as typical as always, I actually have feelings for someone and they fuck me around and throw it back in my face. Fucking typical...
The fact that before that happened I was already in a shit mood coz I got a msg from raymond that afternoon saying he found out where my necklace was, so I all excitedly rang him asking him where it was and he said "Ive found it alright" and I asked where and he said "Around skyes neck"....I swear my heart could of dropped out of my chest right there and then. I don't know whether I was more angry or upset...both I think. Because of the fact, that he blatantly denied he had it to me and to raymond and he lied about it time after time again. Also because of the fact that he knew what that fucking meant to me, he knew how much the guy I got it from meant to me and to me to even give it to him in the first place was a huge deal for me, so not to give it back annoyed me, but when i found out she had it fuck I got annoyed... I hate her so much, Shes not keeping it, I will get it back....They can threaten to kill me, bash me, show up at places wanting to, send ppl out looking for me, abuse me, do what they like but theres no way in the world she is keeping it...
Leah is pissing me off but thats a whole different story...I'm just sick of her and her slutty ways....
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My life reads like the classifieds
Pages of whats for sale
Whats on the auction block
Attention bidders! Its line 45
She's got a decent voice,
She's got that crooked smile
Hold on, you havent heard the best yet
She writes good storylines,
She's got those honest eyes
So take her home for just $9.95
She'll sing the songs you like,
She'll keep you warm at night
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My grandmother died last night, It doesn't actually worry me all that much coz I wasnt that close to her and shes been dying for the past 6 months and shes better off that way but the atmosphere around here atm is so tense....I hate it...Life goes on...That may sound very...unsypmathetic but its true...She was old, she had cancer, she died...Simple as that...Funeral should be interesting though...Since all of dads family hate each other should make it a very interesting day...Seeing as they haven't all been in the same room as each other since the last funeral which was about 20 years ago....
Other than that everything else is alright, work is shit, school is shit, being alone is shit...Im just in a bad mood and Ive had enough of everything and everyone..........
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baby dont you know we're all whores
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Another knife in my hands
A stain that never comes off the sheets
Clean me off
I'm so dirty babe
The kind of dirty where the water never cleans off the clothes
I keep a book of the names and those
Only goes so far 'til you bury them
So deep and down we go
Touched by angels, though I fall out of grace
I did it all so maybe I'd live this every day
Another knife in my hands
A stain that never comes off the sheets
Clean me off
I'm so dirty babe
The kind of dirty where the water never cleans off the clothes
I keep a book of the names and those
Only goes so far 'til you bury them
So deep and down we go
Touched by angels, though I fall out of grace
I did it all so maybe I'd live this every day
your my star
If looks could kill you'd be a murderer....or maybe just a whore...
me - (once again) talknig to Lily
Him - You 2 gurls be quiet
me -(at this stage we wernt talking) But Mr we wernt talknig!
him - Im not going to explain this to you jsut sit there quietly
(he was teaching us how to do shit on the board
---L8er on ---
Me - Mr i dont know how to do this
Him - you should of been listening
Me - you told me you werent teaching ti to me
him - *rolls eyes*
lmao
Oh shit that sucks about that guy.
I suppose the night would have been fun but geez.
What is with men.
This doesnt make me like them anymore.
I always get that lonely feeling.
It makes me an attention whore.
-Sammy
Or just talk to him on msn. That works too. =P
Anyway, I can't focus on the screen. I'm typing blind. I hope these are actualy words I'm not tying, and not jibierish.
I'm really tired.
I'mma go to bed, g'night, gl meeting simon today. =)
(Had to go "view all comments")
Where'd Simon go to?
http://www.64digits.com/games/index.php?cmd=view&gameid=4&display=1
Or this one
http://www.64digits.com/games/index.php?cmd=view&gameid=40&display=1
Babysitting people is anoying.
Especialy when they bite you.
That's not fun.
I have no fuckin idea why a teacher would want to take maths as a job..
K its like explainable if it for Primary whr ya gota teach all da subjects.. but maths for one main subject, ya gota be fckd in da head im telling ya.
With your dad's family, I mean.
So what's up?
Hey, you're on!
I'd love to write an entry, however, I just don't have time. I've got to finnish my calculus course in like...Holy fuck, less than a month.
And I'm only 9/10ths through it.
(You know how I've been constantly doing maht all year? Yeah, I'm only 9 fucking 10ths through the course. Stress stress stress. =P)
well the sun is allmost up and i got to get some winks in
email me ok
long and with all the details and ill do the same cause who knows when i ll be back again
?
how long till the sun rises there
?
good night my love
sweet dreams forever
!
wow
like how did that come about
?
Go the lesbians.
Ah I think I shall be fine in time.
I could do with a shot gun though.
Solve all my problems. =P
-Sammy
now my best friends are saying i'm a selfish cunt.
yea school is gay
i just hope jr college isnt
---Charlie
---Charlie
It really sucks about that guy as well. I really understand where you're coming from. you dont deserve to be treated like that.
Nitey nite
and
sweet dreams my love
till we meet again
!
.
Sorry to hear about Ray and the other guy who you met.
Thanx for ya comment. how you been?
later
-kels
I LOVE yours lol its pretty sweet lol
im diggin the background :-) hehe
-kels
Oh, sorry, swearing...You don't swear, do you?"
"Yeah, I do."
"Oh yeah, I saw it on your msn name. I cried so much when I saw it in your name."
Man, he's awesome. XD
(He was joking about the crying btw)
Then he starts yelling at people in a black preacher accent "The lord is MY shepard, not yours. If you want him, you're gonna have to work for him." and all this funny stuff. It was funny.
And he's like my diary entries, he'll start talking about something, then he'll suddenly go off on some random other topic. (Cont)
In other news, my youth pastor at church is so cool. And funny too. And geeky.
He gave me literaly thousands of dollars worth of computer books, for free! And we're walking around a park, talking (Just the two of us) and he's like (cont)
the 8hr work shift
so ur working right
where
?
email lots and long and bare cause this is it
i got work at 12 and i have an eye appoint at 845 and im drunk and need sleep and yea
i really so much couldnt belive how much i miss doing this
staying up all night saying fuck it typing to some girl that might not be real across the world and stuff
i miss it alot
so email me long and bare cause thats all we got
LIFE!
well go on in the 8hr day
?
or you think
?
or yea wanna fight
?
?
so do you like
them
im right now like die hard fan
so we will see
have you ever heard of the band against me
?
ahhaha
haha
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ahhahaha
ahahhahaha
yea
self-disilliuison
anyways
so how was it
?
was it magical
?
my email address
duh
?
!
do you have it or no
?
i just now read your entry
and damn
im sorry
damn me to buddha
well
i fucked up at a formal
and got arrested and kicked out of school and yea
do you have my email letters
?
im a little drunk again
if you know what i mean
no u dont right
im drunk right now well
alittle buzzed if anything cause damn do i have some stories from liveing at my bros
so yea
im good
ill start jrcollege next month on the 6 or 13
and i have a court date which im not too scared of cause im trying to make my self look good w/papers from teachers and the rehab thing i been going to
but im good
so really
how you hanging up
?
?
?
?
?
?
/?
i have been busy x core.
my eye hurts so bad...
yeshh i need pics of brian...
i heart that boy
im happy to see you are goood
and your diary is still hot and emo
=)
...x o x o...
well i cant stay on much long either cause like i said i got work in like 6hours30mintues and i havent sleep yet
ha sort of rhymes i always do stuff like that
well
have you met any nice guys lately
are u still fighting with thoses one bitchs
and do u work yet
and school
hows school
?
yea
a
so like what are we going to talk about
?
your background makes me smile like this --> :D !!!
get it
?
they may do it in your country too
do they
?
and how sad i hope things are going better than that
yea
well what about you
hows it hanging
?
hahahhaha
oh i there's this girl on myspace with the same background as you on sitdiary ;)
i think its adorable by the way
take care
-shwie
jack bought my soul and put a chip in my head so now i just part of the machine
ahahahhahahah
really its sad
!
im trying to get transfer to JBX which is a some what ok attemp at trying to reinvent Jack in the box so in other words it cost more but hey its bomp shit
ahahhahahahha
if not there to a different jack in the crack that is closer to my brothers house
and damn didnt think u would find me
but u do
how u doing
im k
i worked my first grave yard shift today which was really intreasting!
so i stay at my moms to night cause i have to go back at 12pm
i got off a 330am
sucks huh?
oh wel it was something
my work is really close to my moms like 5mins away
Sami ♥
is an ass
and can go fuck a rat
haha
sorry that he is dumb!
and shizzy
my babe
so how you doing
>?>
from what im reading
geting by
>
Sami ♥
thats just my Opinion..
&&your very welcomeee =)
Oh yer, i got my own computa in my room !!! yay!