Well, I felt it was time for some updation, not that much has happened coz well...I haven't been anywhere all week, besides work and skool today and for the odd few hours here and there all week...Yeah, I know I've heard it all day "errhh Jen where have u been for the past 2 weeks ya fuckin bludger" pfft aint my fault, as if Im goin ta go to school if I don't have to. HAH NO... So my week was relatively undramatic until today, first full day of school for two weeks, couldnt expect it go without drama could we noo....Basically there is this girl, whom me and a few others are annoyed with and I tried explaining to her in simple terms with what the problem was today but she just denies it or contradicts herself or whatever so I give up, its like banging my head up against a brick wall with her, actually i think doing that would be easier....She says she doesnt understand what the problem is, yet I sit down and explain it to her and she denies it, so you tell me? I don't want to bitch about her, or be angry or upset by her because she is supposed to be one of my best friends....But what do you do? Im not angry or upset I feel more betrayed than anything else, and confused as to why she doesnt understand what she's done. Fair enough it hasn't been intentional but the point is it happened and what I said today we all felt had to be said....But she doesnt understand and it is so so frustrating....Like I said, maybe from where she is, she might not see the problem but if she was standing looking at it from everyone else's perspective maybe then she might understand...Who would know, it seems at the moment, like it is all give give give take take take and I'm the one doing the giving and she's doing the taking only when she wants or needs it and if not, she doesn't want anything to do with me...oh sorry thats because apparently I have been very "emotional and temperamental" towards her lately. How the fuck I can be like that when she doesnt even hardly talk to me anymore I dont know. How the fuck I can be tempermental towards her I don't know considering I didnt even know what the fuck the word meant til I asked someone today I dont know....I don't know... *bangs head against wall* --------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- <>What is your favorite.. Gum: Meh extra I guess Restaurant: Meh Drink: Alcohol Season: Summer Type of weather: Rain Emotion: Bliss Thing to do on a early release day: meh Late-night activity: *winks* Sport: To watch? Dunno, To play? Soccer City: Well since Ive only ever been to 2, Id go for Melbourne since thats the only place Iv been besides Bris Store: Millions When was the last time you... Cried: yesterday Played a sport: last friday i kicked a football to someone, does that count? Laughed: Yesterday Hugged someone: ummmm..... Friday Kissed someone: 3 weeks ago =( Felt depressed: Yesterday (Yes hello as you can tell I didnt have the best day yesterday) Felt elated: whats that mean? Felt overworked: Whenever I work Faked sick: Meh, don't have to do that, I just don't go ta skool if I don't want Lied: Dunno What was the last... Word you said: Meh Thing you ate: Bread Song you listened to: Buried a Lie-Senses Fail Thing you drank: Water Place you went to: Simons Movie you saw: Umm, I cant even think of the name of it....It was gayness Movie you rented: Dunoo Concert you attended: ahh no ideaa Who was the last person you... Hugged: whoever I hugged last on sunday Cried over: many things yesterday Kissed: david... Danced with: all the random ppl I danced with at the formal Shared a secret with: Josh Had a sleepover with: God, nooo idea Called: uh..... daryl Went to a movie with: louis Were angry with: meh Couldn't take your eyes off of: hmm david Obsessed over: *see above* Have you ever.. Danced in the rain: hell yes kissed someone: Yes Done drugs: yes Drank alcohol: Yes Slept around: Depends what the definition of that is...Not really... Partied 'til the sun came up: yes Had a movie marathon: Yes Gone too far on a dare: Yes Spun until you were immensely dizzy: Yes Taken a survey quite like this before: yup THE SEX (3 parts); Are you a virgin?: No FOR THE VIRGINS; Do you want to have sex before you get married?: ..... Are you waiting for a special person or would you doit w/ a bf/gf who asked: .... Where do you think you'll find your 'special someone' or have you already?: ... Would you try have sex with a member of the same sex?: ..... Would make sure that you both got tested for any STD's first?: ...... Are you happy being a virgin, or do you wish you weren't?: ........ FOR THE NON-VIRGINS; At what age did you lose your virginity?: 14ish To whom did you lose it to?: .... When was the last time you had sex?: 3 weeks ago, has been toooo looooonggg How many times have you had it?: *coughs* Have you ever had sex with a member of the same sex?: no Do you want to?: Not particuarly Where did you lose your virginity?: the guys house Where was the most uncomfortable place you've had sex?: Hah the last place it happened...Wasnt uncomfortable...Just wasnt the nicest place Do you do anything else while having sex (yeah, odd question)?: Uh? No? Do you like morning sex?: Sure When is the best time to have it?: Sex is sex, morning or night....Its still the same Where is the best place?: Lots of places... What is the best/worst thing about it?: Hmm...Duno FOR BOTH; What sex are you?: Female Sexual preference?: Guys Do you give/recieve oral sex?: If he wants ^ Would you if you had the chance?: yeah Are your friends virgins?: some-half nd half Would you/do you always get tested for STDs?: I dont.. Would you/do you always use protection?: yeah, dont wana have babies THE BOOZE; Do you drink alot?: fair amount Do you get drunk alot?: Depends Have you ever driven while drunk, or been in the car with someone drunk?: yeps What is your favorite drink?: meh Are you over 21?: No How old are you?: 16 Have your parents ever caught you drinking?: yeah, but they got no problem Have you ever drank because of peer pressure?: nah Ever been totally smashed, you forgot who you were?: lol yes Have you ever forced one of you friends to drink?: i didnt force i just...encouraged Have you ever had a really bad hang over?: yes! Do you get hang overs a lot after drinking?: not really Why do you drink?: Because I can Who is your favorite person to drink with?: friends If you drink by yourself, why?: i was bored? JUST SOME RANDOM INFORMATION; If there was one thing you could change about your life, what would it be?: right now I would change the fact that I'm sitting here and not with a certain someone Did you do any of the things mentioned above in spite of someone?: Obviously Are you happy with your life?: I have good and bad days.... ------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------ ♥ Its only you beautiful...or I don't want anyone♥ Hmm...Theres this guy, who I would love to talk about but I'm not quite sure what to say about him...I'm not sure where I stand with him...Its confusing...Im waiting for him to msg me back....Yeah....only 9 hours later and Im still waiting, hey got nothing better to do...We hooked twice, want to again...What would you call that 'hook up buddies'? *sighs* why must something as simple as hooking up with a hot boy become so confusing.... Anyways...Taste of Chaos tickets tomorrow...I keep putting that in there, in the hope to remind me that I must get them tomorrow...Anyways...yeah thats it Theres nowhere to hide:They stole the love from our lives to put the sex on the radio ---------------------------------------------------------------------------- I wish he was here, Im dying to find him next to me tonight. He makes me nervous, and confident and makes me contradict everything about myself....He make me want to be with him, so Im not alone...I dont want to be alone...Not tonight....Just not tonight I think once in a while, everybody gets to the point where they feel like they are about to break at the smallest thing...I think right now is that moment again for me....Either that, or Ive got bipolar....