u no dat song...Broken...is my and andys song...i was thinking bout it before...the lyrics are so true...coz im broken when im lonesum...and i dont feel right...when uve gone away. the worst is over now we can breathe agen i wanna hold u high and steal ur pain so true...bloody lochie the other day goes " i been missing u jen, im sorry, ive been a dickhed lately..its just...i still love u and now ur with someone else and then yesterday he said how hed been thinking bout me all day and then when he went he goes i love u jem and i didnt say nething and he goes aw i was hoping to get a i love u to." i wish hed just leave it...its over...i dont no wot went rong but i just want him to leave me alone...yeh i still have feelings for him...strong feelings but im with somone else now and for the first time in the past few yrs i am happier than i have been in ages, and i just wish he culd see that. if he loves me as much as he says he dus cant he just want me to be happi and leave it. yes a few months ago i could see me and him being together for the rest of our lives...i culd see us getting married, having kids and i wanted to die with him...but stuff changed...he said alota stuff that hurt me...pretended he didnt mean it...tried to take it back...words still hurt tho...more than anything...and i got closer to andy...i couldnt help that...it was going to happen sooner or later..part of my heart is still with him but thats all it will eva be now i just have to push the feelings i have for him aside..hes gone..i have andrew now...i have a guy who loves me so much and has promised me that i will neva lose him and is so sweet and gentle and caring and actuali lives within a 10 min drive from me whereas lochie is like a 2 day drive...i was telling carson and he said hell talk to him for me so yeh..can only hope. then fuckin matty...causes so many bloody problems...if he starts with bindy again i swear ill kill him. coz of him me and her had a fight today...weve only eva had 2 fights...both have been coz of him...well today wasnt reali a fight...im to lazy to fight...was just her mistakingly being pissed off at me and not talking to me...but its all gud again now. neway till later...keep smilin...