well wat a fantastic fucking past 24 hrs i've had. i come home yesterday mums in bed...reali sick so i do everything around here coz everyone else is to fucking lazy to get off their arse..make dinna..wash up...wipe up...clean...make muh sista's lunch...while both of them r fucking complaining and critiscing everything i do...besdies the fact i was that fucking sick myself n culd hardly do nethin..nothing i fucking do is right but theyre to lazy to it themselves so i come home today...n my ssister goes to me ' u no the whole reason shes sick is coz of u...ur the fucking problem in this house' and then starts going on about doin everythin shes dun today but noo jen dusnt get a simple thanks or nething.. Then today i find out the chick he cheated on ski with is apparently the biggest slut around, is 13, been pregnant 4 times and would get with anything that moves basically...doesnt surprise me knowin him. Then i wrote leah a letter last night and gave it to her and she read it and started crying which made me feel so bad...and then last nite ash tried ta do it agen n now steph is all fukt up coz ash tried ta do it...n im the one thats got keep em bth here n i duno if i can do that nemore....onli thing on the good side of things is that i talked to andrew last night and i have to call him later...but were guna go out sunday...im just freaking out and dont wana talk to him coz im shit scared ill end up falling in love with him and then lose him...like always...