Well, I decided it was time for something new...I dunno what to say though....Nothing has really happened...I managaed to lose 2 people last night (woo go me) I didnt even try to lose them haha, Oh I am talented... I want him Not because I like him, but because i like being with him, coz he makes me feel wanted and needed...I just want real love, ridiculous, inconvenient, consuming, cant live without each other love ------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------ I see a sense of wonder deep inside your eyes As we're sparkling and twirling in the twilight And after three long years, I think that we both need this So we seal the deal in the parking lot with a kiss And in case you And in case you were wondering, you are like a sunset to me You're all kinds of beautiful as you end my day and you sweetly retire as stars chase you away I'd collapse to the grass, with your notes ringing in my head Let the rain fill my mouth, and in a couple hours I'll be dead But all the while my lips are whistling our tune But the beauty lies in how you will revive me soon And in case you, and in case you And in case you were wondering, you are like a sunset to me You're all kinds of beautiful as you end my day and you sweetly retire as the stars chase you away And in case you were wondering, you are like a sunset to me You're all kinds of beautiful as you end my day and you sweetly retire as the stars chase you away.. ------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------ Well Im on hols now, no school for 3 weeks (thank god) i'd die if there was anymore...So I babysat this avo...that tired me lol...I duno how a 18 mth old can be so unergetic and make so much mess....But anyways...Leave me lots of luvin, coz I dont seem to be gettin as much lately... ********"and i said "i've gotta be honest, i've been waiting for you all my life." for so long i thought i was asylum bound, but just seeing you makes me think twice. and being with you here makes me sane, i fear i'll go crazy if you leave my side. you've got wits..you've got looks, you've got passion but are you brave enough to leave with me tonight."************ =======================================================================================================================================♥ To the nice girls. To the nice girls who are overlooked, who become friends and nothing more, who spend hours fixating upon their looks and their personalities and their actions because it must be that they are doing something wrong. This is for the girls who don't give it up on the first date, who don't want to play mind games, who provide a comforting hug and a supportive audience for a story they've heard a thousand times.. This is homage to the girls who are comfortable in skirts and sweats and combat boots, who care more than they should for guys who don't deserve their attention. This is for the girls who have been there from the beginning. This is to honor those girls who know that guys are just as scared as they are, who know that they deserve better, who are seeking to find it. This is for the girls who have left sad song lyrics in their away messages, who have tried to make someone understand through a subliminally appealing profile, who have time and time again dropped their male friend hint after hint after hint only to watch him chase after the first girl in a skirt. This is for the girls who have been told that they're too good or too smart or too pretty, who have been given compliments as a way of breaking off a relationship, who have ever been told they are only wanted as a friend. This one's for the girls who you can take home to mom, but won't because it's easier to sleep with a whore than foster a relationship; this is for the girls who have been led on by words and kisses and touches, all of which were either only true for the moment, or never real to begin with. This is for the girls who have allowed a guy into their head and heart and bed, only to discover that he's just not ready, he's just not over her, he's just not looking to be tied down; this is for the girls who believe the excuses because it's easier to believe that it's not that they don't want you, it's that they don't want anyone. This is for the girls who have had their hearts broken and their hopes dashed by someone too cavalier to have cared in the first place; this is for the nights spent dissecting every word and syllable and inflection in his speech. I honor you for the night his dog died or his grandmother died or his little brother crashed his car and you held him, thinking that if you only comforted him just right, or said the right words, or rubbed his back in the right way then perhaps he'd realize what it was that he already had. This is for the night you realized that it would never happen, and the sunrise you saw the next morning after falling to sleep. This is for the "I really like you, so let's still be friends" comment after you read more into a situation than he ever intended; this is for never realizing that when you choose friends, you seldom choose those which make you cry yourself to sleep. This is for the hugs you've received from your female friends, for the nights they've reassured you that you are beautiful and intelligent and amazing and loyal and truly worthy of a great guy; this is for the despair you all felt as you sat in the aftermath of your tears, knowing that that night the only companionship you'd have was with a pillow and your teddy bear. This is for the girls who have been used and abused, who have endured what he was giving because at least he was giving something; this is for the stupidity of the nights we've believed that something was better than nothing, though his something was nothing we'd have ever wanted. This is for the girls who have been satisfied with too little and who have learned never to expect anything more: for the girls who don't think that they deserve more, because they've been conditioned for so long to accept the scraps thrown to them by guys ♥ ======================================================================================================================================= ♥The reason it hurts so much to seperate is because our souls are seperated. Maybe that always have been and always will be. Maybe we've lived a thousand lives before this one and in each of them we've found each other♥ **********it was your hello that kept me hanging on every word. and your goodbye that keeps me listening for you voice around each corner."***********