hmm...where do i start with everything thats hapened in the last week. Last wednesday, i came really close to leaving home..for good...really close. If it wasnt for him i would've gone...hes just the unfortunate person that had to listen to me cry ova the phone, um since then we have decided...well we were going to go away now but neither of us have jobs so we have no source of income, but yeh...i been thinking bout...he wants to move out nxt yr, i want to so if we're still togetha we culd proli get a place togetha..so yeah. Its so weird, im full in love with him but then sometimes...i get scared...i dont kno wot i get scared of..but i do, and i dont like it..i duno i wana prove to him how much i love him...it just feels like words arent enuf somtimes but i duno wot else to do...say...nething like that, i reali dont. Matty crashed his car last week, hah...thats wot u get for drivin wen ur pissed as all fuk. he was apparently guna call me friday night but didnt coz no1 had muh numba...luckily coz i duno wot id say to him. but yeh hes been passin msgs to me thru other ppl. and txted me yesterday askin me wot muh addy was so he can tork to me...coz i txted him sayin i was sorry for bein abusive. bloody lochie...i duno...in some ways he fukn wth muh head, in others i dont think he is. i just wish he did not love me...lol thats all i wanted for 2 yrs...and now he does and all i want is for him not to..how dodgy and selfish is that ay. yea well dats bout all for now, fuk muh hand hurts tho ay...lol...got kikt outa a few shops yesterday coz a certain person was tryna teach me how skate in da middle of them and i kept knockin stuff down..ahh gud fun..neways l8rz