How come a broken heart hurts everywhere? Why does it take control of your body, making it seem like its impossible to live without him. When he says 'break' does he mean break me down to pieces? He's so good at being everywhere when hes nowhere around. I guess forever wasn't as long as i thought. You know the other day when we didn't talk, i didn't know how i was going to get through the day, just thinking he didnt want to talk to me because when he doesnt talk its easier to forget me. I need him...i want him...i love him. I need him to hold me and tell me that eevrything will be ok...that i will be ok...Its like leah said, its like he just wants the satisfaction of seeing and knowing that im hurting instead of just letting me be brave and strong and he wont give up until i break. Well im fucking hurting ok. What does he want. does he want to see the tears i could drown in...the blood...what? all the hate i had for him has just turned into hurt...pure hurt...I need him to care...You no what he said to me last week he said something bout burning himself so i said fine if you can do that i guess i can go cut then and he said "Fine do what you want. I dont fucking care anymore" After everyting and he said that and fuck it was hard not to cut at times but i promised him i wouldnt and i kept that promise. Well fuck him he breaks the relationship and his promises why the fuck should i keep mine to him. I keep thinking about all the good times we've had together and their have been so manu. How can he just go and throw that all away. I honestly didnt see it coming...the last time that i saw him ( that we were together) he was a bit distant but everything was fine...we were fine... It was a good weekend...i spose i should be happy that i have good things to look back on but at the moment it just makes me realise how much i miss him and how much it hurts...will i eva be able to say his name without tears coming out...i just want to tell him to look what hes done to me so i can he if hes satisfied. How can somone who loved me as much as he did and say they never wanted to hurt me, how can they hurt me as much as he has...