An old friend of mine told me that she was concerned for me. Isnt it funny how the people who leave your life and don't talk to you for a year come back just to say they think you have a problem. I find this funny because she hasn't thought twice to call me or contact me this whole year. Then suddenly.. she calls to tell me I have a drinking problem... "Jen you are an alcoholic." Please , that's the least of my problems. Life at the moment just calls for some drinks every now and then.. especially now. I love to forget. Then she tells me I have a problem of using sex and alcohol as means to try and forget all my "problems" Fuck you up there controlling my fate, making sure I'll never get anything I want to love. Only drinks that pour and those to give out. There are only so many words I can write in the dark, to contimplate in these intoxicated times, when I know tomorrow I won't be able to read these lines... Open mind and heart and enter you- what was I thinking falling for you? I fell hard, now it just hurts and the scraped knee begins to bleed As he said....."If u like him then tell him...Do you wanna be a sex object at his disposal, ready to fuck at the click of his fingers...But you ask yourself, do you only like him cause of sex?..." ♥=======================================================================================================================================♥ I love to see beauty in things in life I believe the world will never revolve around one person I¡¯m that person you mum told you to stay away from as a kid I fall in love way to easy I want you to figure me out People close to my heart will always stay that way The world distracts me too easily I say, I hate you often, but I never mean it. if the world ended and i was there to see it i would be the one saying 'its about time' I have the best dreams but I always have to wake up Kisses in the rain are my favourite Taking photos from the heart not just because I can I believe you can never run away from yourself I ignore the world a lot I¡¯m gullible and it always is used to hurt me I regret all those times I thought I was in Love Every time I smile my heart gets a little lighter