My therapist thought it was a good idea for me to start journaling again, and I can't help but feel like she's right. I have been finding it harder and harder to express me feelings to my boyfriend because I feel so overwhelmed and depressed about my life, right now. I feel like he has not patience with my problems, and I feel like I have no patience when explaining them. Im just sad. I wish everything could go back to the way it was a year before this.

sometimes these moments make me wonder what was substantially good about our relationship to begin with? Right now, I can't see anything. I feel like everything leading up to this year has just been negative. From the way we started seeing one another, to the way we started dating, to these whole two years of our lives together. Nothing feels right. Nothing is making me happy. I am ready to give up now.