I give up. i have been led on once afuckinggain. as bad as i might want to there is no place i can hide anything anymore. not a thought, not a cut. all i ever wanted was to matter. *************************** ArJay: sry chat_bac_gurl_16: its ok chat_bac_gurl_16: im braindead n have a question to ask u but i dunno how to word it really. gotta think on it for a bit ArJay: ok chat_bac_gurl_16: there is no im going to be a blob time this weekend. ArJay: ok ArJay: i have a hateful father to deal witht his weekend chat_bac_gurl_16: im sorry. i have a cranky old grandma tomorrow...? ArJay: o ArJay: waiting for yur ? chat_bac_gurl_16: oh sry.. chat_bac_gurl_16: i dont know if i'll ask it tonight ArJay: i don t kno if ill be ont omorrow my dad is an ass remmber chat_bac_gurl_16: yeah. i probly wont be much either ... shopping blah blah blah chat_bac_gurl_16: just cuz its the kind of question that might have a discussion to follow depending on how i put it and i cant stay on too muchlonger i dont htink ArJay: i can only be ont il midnight chat_bac_gurl_16: oh lol thats when i have to get off to or mom will "turn the curcuit breaker off" ArJay: but my dad is being an ass tonite 9more than normal) chat_bac_gurl_16: oh im sorry that sucks ArJay: so i dotn kno if i'll be on tonite. so just comment the blog or something if it has to do w that too chat_bac_gurl_16: ok.. ArJay: tmoorow nite** chat_bac_gurl_16: lol its ok i knew what u meant ArJay: ur questions lately have to do w my journal chat_bac_gurl_16: oh. i dont think this one does ArJay: ok wll ask chat_bac_gurl_16: i will... i am still thinking sorry chat_bac_gurl_16: because im tired mostly ArJay: im tired and sick chat_bac_gurl_16: sick? chat_bac_gurl_16: im sorry that sucks ArJay: eh ArJay: if u ask we have some time to discuss' ArJay: im getting bored and tireder and headacheder chat_bac_gurl_16: oh.. ArJay: yea chat_bac_gurl_16: i honest to god can't think right now. meh less is more. ArJay: why dont you just fucking ask i have no patience ArJay: n/o chat_bac_gurl_16: as his friend and knowing him and stuff, do you think there is any chance of jordan and i ever having anything more than friendship again chat_bac_gurl_16: im tired sorry and i hate asking things like that ArJay: no chat_bac_gurl_16: okey dokey then ArJay: there is no chance, things being what they are now. if they stay the smae no ArJay: if things stay the same no chat_bac_gurl_16: what things being what? ArJay: the way u act about him and the way he acts in accordance to it chat_bac_gurl_16: ok ArJay: the way he acts to me ArJay: the way i feel about him and he knows it ArJay: everything all together makes it that way. u dont talk to him, he doesnt care about you bcoz he dont kno u nemore ArJay: i ask him things about you and he asks uf u asked and i say no coz usually its my curiosity and he says "does she still obsess over it? we've been broken up 9 months chat_bac_gurl_16: ok ArJay: im gonna go now... this is unbearable pain chat_bac_gurl_16: ok chat_bac_gurl_16: bye