So... today sucked really bad. Yesterday was cold and I watched too many movies. No more movies motherfucker!!! I am sick of food. I don't want to eat anything... but I am. Jerky and Hershey's kisses are my comfort foods today. Partially because I can't have the chicken till the mom gets home. Natasha never got on. ..tear... I haven't talked to anyone worthwhile that is important to me for along time. I saw things today I wish I hadn't... I don't know whats going on anymore. I don't know what to do about these feelings. I'm obsessing with death again. I HATE it. We learned fun signs in ASL though. Vomit Born haha. The world can fucking die. It still feels like a needle in my eye I don't know why it hurt me like it did. Nothing has for a long long long long time. I still don't know whats going on with me. I wish they made novocaine for feelings....