I am so tired. Too much to do. I am procrastinating and falling horribly behind. I dont like feeling like this... overwhelmed. I wish I could have a friend like matt. God, what I wish is that I had natasha and robyn and matt to hang out with. i miss having friends that were just always there. I miss laughing all day long. Not to say I don't laugh or that my friends right now aren't good... I just miss them. I miss alot of people... myself included. I hate missing people. It makes me feel so insignificant and lonely. I don't know why. Maybe it's the memories. Something. I just don't like it I am so behind. My worst grade is only a C though and thats in English. The teacher is mad because alot of us didnt do our homework. I say, bite me motherfucker. I feel so... i dont know. Weird. I dont like the feelings that are associated with this. It makes me want to.... well.. yeah... but i am trying soooooo hard not to and I don't like what it leaves behind. I feel so horribly ashamed of it when i'm done... i cut my finger on my braces today. it was shocking. but nice. i want to get my cameras developed. fuck. hahhaa flashback. thunderwear god i miss you matt.