This is just about the most boring week I've ever been through. I'm looking for a job, but as of yet, I still don't have one. So basically, I've just been sitting around the house...with my fucking parents, of all people. God this sucks. I need to get a job, if only to get the fuck out of here for a while. It sucks being out of college before everyone else. I mean, yeah, its nice not having class or exams to worry about. But I would seriously rather take a whole month of final exams than to sit around here and talk with my parents. But I'm fucking broke and I need to save up money for next semester in the fall. So it looks like I'll be home for the next three goddamn months. I can't stand it. The boredom is just unbareable. No one else around here EVER has anything to do. I don't have any place to get fucked up. And I just can't stand this. I need a fucking vacation. I just talked with one of my friends in North Carolina. He mentioned a drive to California sometime this summer. That would be fucking sweet. I need a roadtrip so badly. He also mentioned several places to stay around there and all sorts of drug connections. Peyote and shrooms galore. That would be so incredibly awesome. And California, I've always wanted to visit there. Everytime I've been out that direction, we stop just before California. I want to swim in the Pacific Ocean. I want to drink on the beach. I want to "fuck me some white bitches" as this one guy at college used to say all of the time. Fucking hilarious. In other news, I just got an e-mail from my philosophy professor last semester. I had never actually talked to the guy in person because we had a huge lecture class and I never had the need to talk with him outside of class. But anyhow, he congratulated me on getting an A in the course and wanted to talk with me about considering a major or minor in philosophy. As I may have mentioned in previous entries, I have been planning on acquiring a minor in philosophy next semester. It was a surprise to me that he took the time to write up an e-mail to ask me about it, seeing as to how there were about 270 other students in my class alone last semester. I must've written something impressive in my final exam essay. Anyhow, I am considering changing my major to philosophy. However, I do not know exactly what the fuck I would do with such a major. I mean, you don't find philosopy career options everyday. What the hell kind of job would I get after college? I love philosophy. And, given the opportunity to get paid to do it, I would take it in an instant. But...I have already wasted a year on computer science. I'll be honest, though. I suck at computer science. I can't do math and I'm not as good at writing code as I should be. Right now, I'm just so confused with everything in my life. I don't know what to do with my life anymore, what to become, and it scares the shit out of me. It just feels like I need a change, but I'm too chickenshit to take charge and do it. Its going to take some time for me to get up the balls to just do it.