Yea Tony Just left after being here for his first time alone..everytime he would come over either dan er someone would come too so that was good :) i talked to kaila for the first time in forever..tony made me..she was online @ brittany blits house. i thought that if i @ least talked to her i would feel better but it made me feel even worse. She doesnt even understand how much i miss her. She was like my sister..we did everything together n joked around about alot of stupid shit not to mention we are "blood sisters" after the night we got drunk. i told her i missed her alot and she said "oh" and she said that she heard that i was talking madd shit about her which is deffentily NOT true unless someone told her i siad that i miss her and want her back as my friend. all i did for that grl was stick up for her n try to help her out. 14 years of friendship is just so much to just throw away. She kept saying that ima liar n i bullshit way to much and saying i have no reason to hate ginny. Kaila said she couldnt even talk to me right now n the only reason i hate ginny is because she backstabs all her friends and lies more then anyone i know. Then kaila went out to the mall with britt n her away message said "Went to the mall with the better brittany"..yea that made me feel like shit. im mad @ brittany too cuz she just sat there the whole time and she knew the way i felt about kaila and she even let kaila put up that way message..thats shitty. i was crying on tony shoulder feeling like a dumbshit through the whole god damn thing. but o well right? i would love to just hug kaila again and be able to call her my best friend, but i know that wont happen and we will never be the same :( i feel so heavy n like i have to cry but i have to hold it in..i hate crying. ugghh one day kaila will realize what she had when ginny fucks it up. well i feel like shit nd i wanna die:) so i think i have had enough of this for one night..ill write more maybe WAYYY later tongiht if i cant sleep or tomarrow sometime. Tony..thanks for everything and always being there for me. i love you so much baby