well yesterday was tonys bday n my mom baught him a cake n a card n she put money in it for him. she has never dont that for any of my ex boyfriends. she really likes tony. he couldnt get over the fact that my mom did that for him either. haha we sang to him. hehe..we got pics too which i think i will be getting back tomarrow. yesterday was like perfect. i had a really good day. well..one thing went wrong that was over in like 5 mins. i was being gay again, letting the gay jealousy shit get to me. its all fucking dumb n i dont know why i let it bother me. tony doesnt even think about it until i give him a look like im sad now. at first he never even gets it..hes like whats wrong. then hes like ooo..are you serious? n im like yea :-/ but its always over in like 5-10 mins. sometimes i feel like i annoy him with that stupid shit. idk..hes such an awesome perosn n i love him more then anything but i dont wanna hurt him. cuz when im sad he is too. n i hate putting him through shit that isnt worth happening. but then i think..we love eachother so much n it would hurt us so much more if we ever broke up. im never giving him up, for anything. n i know he feels the name. anyways..we watched gothika..i have already seen it. but dan n ashley n zack liked it alot. i was wearing my new grey shirt :D ugh..i cant explain to anyone..not even tony..how inlove with him i am. idk..sometimes it bothers me that i cant. but others its like maybe its a good thing that its so strong you cant. idk Me n tony laid out in the driveway for a little while looking up @ the stars. We shared a secret that night. one that will never be forgotten..im inlove with you tony today..we went to see without a paddle. i thought it was madd funny. i liked it alot. me tony dan n melissa went. dollar store n taco belllll. :) then we came back here n chilled. me n tony were on the bean bag n melissa n dan were @ the comp. i had a good time. i was in tonys arms the whole time..kissing n talking :) i was wearing my new black shirt. i took tony n dan home around 930 n then came back here n made soup with melissa..watched tv..went on the comp..n haha we were drawing n coloring. :) shes playing ps2 with my bro right now. melissa said somthing today that didnt exactly make me mad or bother me..but made me think about. i was saying how when im not with tony i miss him..n part of my isnt complete..n she said that i make it sound like my friends are useless. thats not it. i love all of my friends so much. there fun, nice, realiable, trustworthy, funny..n im always here for them whenever they need me. just because i have a boyfriend doesnt mean i dont need my friends. they are a big part of my world n i need them just as much. idk..it made me think..i was speechless when she said that..i was like uhhh no?! n that was the end of that. ew i found out somthing grose today form ashley that i never need to here again that im not saying in this thing. hahaha ewww nastyyyyy i think tonys coming over tomarrow. :) well im ganna go. tony i love you sooooo much. more then anything in the world n i have no clue what i would do without you.