yesterday i did allmy homework and cleaned my room. i felt accomplished. so today, i thought was ganna be a good day which it was until 8th period. i asked mrs. helinski if tony and i had the spots on the bus for the nyc trip and she said yes because 2 dropped out:) so i was happy. then we had a fire drill and me, stephanie and ashley walked a different way to get back to class and mr. sited told mrs helinski and ms. bunker that he would be worried to take me on the nyc trip because i would "wonder off" or "not come back on time" so they said they would let me know if i could go by the end of the day. so me n tony went back there after 9th period and mrs bunker said i was kicked off the trip so that fucking pissed me off. yeah. i was balling and bitching to tony that it was all my fault that i blew both of our chances ot have a good time at nyc. i called my mom and told her what happened and she called the school and left a message for mrs.bunker telling her to call her back. mrs. bunker better call her because my mom wants me to have this oppertunity just as much as i do. its not fair cuz i didnt do shit. i fucking hate teachers. well at least i know if i had went "the right way" to mr. sites room i wouldnt have to deal with all this shit. god. im really upset about this. oh and not to mention that im the talk of everyone rightnow because im friends with stephanie again. im sorry but i dont want to deal with all that shit from people even though i knew it was ganna happen. i mean..i love all of my friends and everything and i know i talked shit, but we're trying to get passed that and be normal again, but i would appriciate it if you could support my decision and be happy for me that i have my friend back and the drama ended. i hope no ones mad at me but if you guys are..i think its kinda gay. wow im really stressed out right now and im running on about every problem and i need to stop. on a better note.. Tony's ganna be getting on soon. im excited:) hehe oh and btw, he was really understanding about the nyc thing and tryed telling me it wasnt a big deal even though hes just saying that because he knoes im upset about it. he said hopefully hes ganna be getting his car over the summer and he will take me there then:) well i think thats it and ill write more later in the day or more tomarrow. American Idols tonight and i cant waiitttt:)