Ended up going out to Dinner with my mom @ the olive Garden. Awesome Time..Awesome food. Lots of laughs. Then We went to TJ Maxx cuz i needed Jeans cuz i have a ripped pair..another pair that i dont like too much..then i wear this pair thats my moms. so i despretly needed some. I ended up not getting any @ TJ Maxx. They were either all Gay or didnt look right. idk. So we ended up going to the mall where i wanted to go in the first place..to show my mom the dress n the phone i wanted..n to look @ some more jeans while we were there. I ended up getting 3 pairs of Jeans @ the Bonton. I got 40 bucks left to by some more. We went to look @ the phone i wanted..it turns out you had to switch plans with the one i wanted. n my mom cant chnage plans for a while. So i was juts ganna get one sorda like the one i have now but just in color..so the guy brang it out n hes like wait you cant n bla bla bla about this stupid discount shit. so i ended up not getting anything. They are ganna mail me another one cuz my moms ganna say it broke or somthing. They are ganna eaither send me the SAME one i have now or the upgraded virsion thats in color. So lets hope its that one. Then We had this big fight about Garry on the way home. That fucking Sucked. To me it feels like he means more to her then i do. My mom goes n buys him braclets n such but i have to like fucking beg her for 40 dollars on a new phone. That pisses me off. My brother gets more then i do too. ugh. n i cant tell my dad what im feeling cuz he doesnt know that my mom baught gary that piece of shit for a braclet n i dont wanna get my mom in trouble. I dont wanna lose my talking, open, trustworthy relationship with my mom over parents divorce. But it feels like we drift away everyday n it hurts. Its getting harder n harder for me to adjust to this new living style. im not ok with it anymore. I wish things could go my way this time. I want things to be normal again. I miss it. Tonys walking home with me tomarrow n were ganna chill @ my house. Hes getting picked up @ 7 cuz his mom is going somewhere then. That fucking blows but hey..i get to see him. idc for how long for the most part..Its just hard to let him go when it comes time for him to go home. Tony thinks my dad doesnt like him or somthing. Thats not true. My dad likes him more then Dustin. I can say that much. My dad also knows that Tony treats me alot better then that asshole ever did. So he has alot of respect for tony. No more to write. its like 11pm. im ganna go watch rosanne n then try to get some sleep. n i gotta think on what shoes im ganna wear with my Tan pants n brown shirt tomarrow. i dont think i have any to match. looks like i wont be matched tomarrow. o well. idc. ..Tony, your the love of my life..