We argued last night, Evan brought up that he wanted to take a break from school and maybe work during the summer i'm ok with that...

but why not go to Utah and spend time with friends and family? is it so difficult that i would want that?

it went overboard. Evan started talking about Scofield, which although that sounds fun at first, we find that we'd only get sundays and one week for a break. it might be a little tiring. Honestly, i want to go back because i miss my friends and my family. I could easily spend a few months in Utah and not feel bored. i have friends and family that i'd see and visit, projects i could do, Mindy has a wall that she wants a painting done on, My Mom always needs something done, i could spend time with Dallan, Emily, Brad, Christa, reconnect with Francis, and give Levi the map that i'm still holding on to. Find Colby and tell him that i miss his smile, and help him.

Is that so difficult?

yet, he tells me that what i want is not independent. that i am not capable. That i could either go home stay in my parents basement, and wait until the next guy comes along and sweeps me off my feet, or i could stay here and accept it.

Accept that i'm not happy? That i can't be? but he made it clear that he wasn't going to be a part of me going back to be in Utah.

So does that mean that i don't get to be happy no matter what?

Maybe i'll stay... get my certificate. then leave everyone behind, and go Study Art.