i dont know what to do anymore... i feel like everyone is moving on and i cant do a damn thing about it. everyone around me just seems so happy. sommers finaly left devon, ashley has collin, alison has sommer, and jennifer has devin.. where does that leave me? i mean... i love jennifer.. but.. i cant be with her right now.. i cant be with anyone for that matter right now.. and i feel like im letting her down.. and i know its my own fault that im not happy or anything.. its just.. jesus.. i've done everything that i can that makes me somewhat happy.. and now i've resorted to those fill-in puzzle things. which are actually really fun and i enjoy them. but doing fill-ins wont make my life complete. and i dont want someone else to complete my life.. it just.. it would be nice to have someone there ya know? im going through some hard times right now.. and it just would be nice if someone loved me.. or at least liked me.. i duno.. oh well.