ok so.. im moving in with her now.. my mom finally "gave" in.. i guess she actually sees how much im hurting here.. i duno.. but ever since its become official, my sister has just like.. completely.. changed.. im scared.. i mean.. i feel like i've just been in the way this entire time.. its like im the reason she cant have fun.. and it really hurts.. like, today in french she was talking to her friends (yes we're in the same class) and i overheard that shes going to have a party.. and its just.. she never would have done that if i were there.. i would ruin it for her.. shes around all her friends and im the little sister. even when im friends with two of hers (that are in the class).. i just feel so.. invisible.. also today.. at lunch, a friend of mine and i were sitting and eating. my friend ryan f came by and said hi to alison, but not me. its like i wasnt even there.. and he's like one of my good friends! see THAT is why im moving. im so sick of these people that i have grown up with treating me like i was never born. they know me.. at least most of them do. and its just.. its like, i used to be friends with these people. the preps, goths, jocks, etc.. when did it all change? when did everyone get put into a group? when did people get their 'name'? and.. where was i for this? its like i wasnt even there to be put in my place.. i was forgotten.. and it hurts. these people are supposed to care about me.. i care about them. like.. ok this girl named stephanie carr and i used to be like really good friends. and now shes almost to the top of the popularity list. and i couldnt be further underground.. its just really rediculous.. and it hurts.. im so sick of being left behind and forgotten.. i just hope it doesnt happen again..