so today was a good day. i finally got over ryan, i hung out with grant and blake, i made some revelations of my own that were long overdue.. today was just a good day.. grant and i are getting along which is really nice. i like it when we arent mad at eachother... it feels really nice you actually get out of the house and do something.. this summer i had plans and all that.. but it got shot down and i got depressed.. but now that i've been getting out of the house and into some daylight, its made me a happier person. however, i still wear dark clothes in the dead of the day.. which sucks.. but i like to be me. and im just not me in bright "omg" colors... oh well im still alive. no heat stroke or anything. yay for that. well im going to go to bed and well.. sleep..