well.. i never thought i would ever feel this alone.. i dont know what to do with myself.. i just.. i dont want to live anymore.. nothing i do anymore seems.. important.. i feel like i dont have any friends.. and.. i duno.. i know i have friends.. but.. they've heard everything.. either that or they dont care/have adhd.. i just.. im fighting for something that i know that i wont get. but i wont stop.. he means so much to me.. i dont even know how to put it into any other words.. and i know that he thinks hes not worth it.. but to me, he is. he's not perfect.. but i dont want him to be. i dont want anyone to be perfect... i just dont know what to do. i know i cant quit fighting for him.. but i dont know what i can do to win his heart. cause.. to be honest.. he pretty much has mine.. i mean.. he's not my entire world. i know that much.. and i duno.. i dont know how to explain it.. i just know that that "thing" is there. and we both feel it. i duno.. i guess i just have to wait.. and it sucks.. either way. im fighting..