i never thought i would be with someone like him. i never thought i would actualy fall for him.. but i did.. and i have to admit it scares me to death. but.. he makes me happy.. a kind of happy that i've never felt. it all seems too good to be true.. i hope its not.. i hope this last a long time. sometimes i feel like i really annoy him.. but he annoys me at times too. but one of the best things about being around him is the fact that i feel safe around him. its a really wonderful feeling.. this upcomming week is going to blow though.. he's going to new mexico for a ski trip with his dad and his brother and sister. and apparently his dads girlfriend and her son is going too. he's not too thrilled about that. but what can ya do? im going to miss him like crazy... *sigh*.. so.. for the first time in a long time i really ok. things arent going bad.. but they arent going good per say.. but more good than bad. im back on my zoloft which is helping a lot. im still really uncomfortable with where i live and all that stuff.. but.. im just ok.. and its a rather exciting thing.. im ok with being ok..