so yeah.. i didnt continue imidiately.. but at least im continuing.. anyway.. mom blew up her sweet potato stuff and kays stuffing. it was actually kinda funny cause i came downstairs into the kitchen and asked what the hell happened.. haha.... right.. anyway.. i slept alone last night and it was so depressing.. i havnt slept alone since... i duno.. 2-3 months.. i duno.. i miss her so much.. i cant hug her or kiss her.. i think not being around her is giving me a stomach ache cause it hurts really bad.. :(.. you know.. i come home so that i can relax and hang out with friends, but i havnt done anything with friends.. not even last time! mom just takes me over to the house and makes me clean all day.. and now, she took kay over there and i stayed here.. and now i have to clean kays house! this is bulshit! grr.. i've lost 3 lbs, but i look uber fat.. i hate this. i wanna be skinny again! i had no problem with being 112... no problem at all. now im 140.. how does this happen! i've gained 30 lbs in the last 5 months.. thats not good! ewwness of the body!! anyway.. im gonna go.. my arm hurts like a bitch and its hard to type. to my love: I LOVE YOU!!!