im not really sure how to explain anything that im feeling right now. im feeling i guess.. happy.. i dont know what happened.. but jennifer and i are going to work out our friendship, grant and i are doing ok.. i duno.. its only two things but.. its the two people in my life that give a damn about me and its just kinda.. nice.. to have something good happen.. i like it.. i still feel somewhat alone sometimes.. but not as much as i did.. i dont know what happened.. but i like this. i hope it lasts..