ive never felt so out of place. i went to walmart with my sister and her friend and i just.. i felt unwanted.. and grant came over and i just.. i didnt feel like i fit.. i feel hated and forgotten.. and i dont know what to do to make myself feel better.. i want to go to dustin.. but hes never home.. plus my family doesnt like him.. i duno.. i feel like i cant go to anyone.. i feel like im dieing.. im in so much pain right now.. and no one seems to see it. and i thought i was really easy to read.. i tried to go to someone.. but they just didnt understand.. and i felt lost.. i always feel lost... i dont know where or who i am.. never have... i just.. i need help.. im begging for someone to help me..