well.. im back to being.. sad.. my days of happiness ended last night.. i guess im ok.. i just hate it.. it sucks.. i thought we were doing ok.. but i was wrong.. what else is new? i cant believe i expected it to work. all my relationships never work.. something always goes wrong (mostly my fault) and its just over.. god this sucks! this fucking sucks.. *cries* WHY CANT I BE FUCKING HAPPY!?!?