I'm not really lovesick... just kinda sick of love. What am I saying? I could never be sick of love. *Love is like oxygen, Love lifts us up where we belong, All you Need is Love* Moulin Rouge I never thought I'd say this but I'm actually wanting someone to fall out of love with me. For one, he's 28. For two, he's a bum with no car or definite future. For three, he obsessed with sex and underage girls (aka me). For four, he's freaky now. He didn't use to be... but now he makes me promise to call him back and he spent the entire day at the mall becuz I said I might stop by there. This could end badly. Very badly. I still want to be his friend. He's a good guy... he just needs to understand that I can't do this. Have a relationship with him becuz I'm too... what's the word? Young, impressionable, immature, bitchy, stupid, ugly, fat? All of those things. No one needs to love me. I say that now but that's what I want more than anything. For the person I truly love to love me back. I'm such a sap. Guess what movie, I'm about to go see... The Fucking Notebook. I got asked out on a date for tomorrow. Valentine's Day.... with Josh! I've been in heart with this kid for 4 years and he asked me to dinner! I can't get my hopes up about this... it's too important. Almost six months without cutting... I'm having a celebration... it'll be wonderful... HAPPY EARLY VDAY!