there have been hornier and drunker days. i have been hornier and drunker in my life. why does it suck so bad tonight?? i mean it hasn't been that long since i've had sex. it hasn't been like 5 years or anything. but being around it... *hint hint* is fucking killing me. they have someone and i don't... and that kills me inside. i don't wanna like younger guys. like brent or austin. they're young and inexperienced. i need to fucking get laid. jesus christ. i can't even think of anything else. all i want to do is straddle some guy and fuck his brains out. or girl or anything. i love making out with girls sometimes. oh god my hand hurts. i need to whack off. why did i drink? i'm not even that buzzed and i'm spouting off all my wishes and desires. don't confuse lust with love... i was thinking that earlier. just cuz i wanna fuck someone doesn't mean that i love them... it just means that i'm very horny and very "disillusioned"... that makes me think of lacy e. god fucking shoot me