I didn't feel like myself yesterday... at all. It was really weird because I always think that I have so much to offer to the world, and to my peers and to music... but yesterday was just void of that feeling in me. I think it was partially due to my observations in my choir classes. I noticed that I was surrounded by a group of self-centered divas, solely-concerned with their well being and not for the betterment of making music or the group itself. Not everyone in the choir acts like this, but it's starting to get worse and worse as the days go by. I decided that spending more than 3 or 4 hours a day in choir is just too much for me, so I'm quitting men's choir. I just have too much going on, even thought Cross Country is over I still have work and coffee house stuff going on. I think in about two weeks I'll be able to relax a little bit... this is assuming that my trig homework gets easier than it is now (it's ridiculously tedious and confusing right now). I think things in my life are getting more simple and legitimate too. I'm really trying my best to just simplify my daily life. Up until now in high school it was as if I had something to prove to people, but now I'm really just trying to relate to people and be myself, there's so much trash people icorporate into how the interact and how their day goes, I'm not really up for any of that so I'm just gonna live, ya know. Jazz gig tomorrow... hope everything goes well, requested off work. Later kids, sleep well.