Well, I realized something else. Tweek isn't really a friend. Well, he's one of my closest, really, but I can't depend on him to be a REAL friend. It's because of his damned mood swings. We hang out, and we enjoy each other's company (sometimes), but Tweek isn't really the buddy-buddy type of person. Sometimes he likes to talk and hang out, and sometimes he doesn't, and sometimes he hates me for no reason at all, and sometimes he wants to jump me. Whatever. He's too complicated to figure out, and frankly, I'm done trying. If he wants to hang out then we'll hang out, and if he doesn't want to, we wont. I am no longer basing my entire social life around him. Now that I got that over with. Well, the RP is going good. There's this REALLY idiotic girl that can't seem to figure out the use of the period in there, but whatever, I'll just ignore her as much as possible. Everyone else in there is really smart--even, believe it or not, Christina Agulera!!! (Can't spell her name, and I don't really care HOW it's spelled.) Actually the girl that plays her is really smart, even though she comes off as a blonde, bimbo, Christina Agulera groupie-wannabe. But so far, sorry to say it, but the most intelligent people in the RP are Jess and I. I mean, the girl that plays Christina is smart, I just can't shake that first impression, or the impression I got from reading her profile on Yahoo. Weird stalker person..... Anyway. I'm not gonna be working on All I've Got for a while, because I have writer's block. Mainly from my depression from Jordan leaving. I just can't seem to write anything besides two paragraphs for a RP and a diary entry.... SHIT!!! My friend from the GLBT group on Yahoo (Gay Lesbian Bi Trans) invited me to lunch tomorrow (or today, i s'pose) at TGi Friday's for her 40th birthday. I'm not sure if I can go! ACK!!!! I told my mom about it forever ago, but she forgets EVERYTHING, so she probably planned something else instead! Aghh!!! Oh, well, I'll talk to her tomorrow, she's in bed right now. *Sigh* Well, Zack called today (grrr, yesterday), but I wasn't home. And I forgot I had his number. I just now found it, and it's too late to call him (one AM), so I'll have to call him tomorrow. Alright, I think I'm done. Not much is going on, so... yeah. Bye. TTFN! *** I realized something else. (I realize too many things.) Well, when I told my mom I was bi, she tried to deal with it, and was pretty calm about it, but she was really weird about it. And at first I just thought it was because I mentioned that I had ANY sexual preference, and I was twelve at the time, but now I get it. She always says that she's okay with people being gay or bi, but she's uncomfortable around people that are. I mean, she knew that Jacob and I dated, and that Jordan and I dated... hell, she knew about my first boyfriend ever, way back in kindergarten. And she never had a problem with it. She's just scared of the thought of me dating another girl. She doesn't care however many boyfriends I have as long as I, God, forbid, don't end up with a girl. It's ridiculous. Well, at least she isn't saying any of it. I think she knows that if she did say that she wasn't okay with it, I would be out of here. And that always reminds me... I'm not sure if my dad and Jess know I'm bi. My mom might've told my dad, but I doubt Jess knows. I don't know why I didn't tell HER first, her best friend's bi, she'd always be okay with that! Oh, well, whatever. Well, I went to the lunch thing. It was fun. It was pretty weird though. There were two sixth-graders who acted like first-graders there, one Sophomore at Bartlett (that's Kirstin, and she's pretty cool) and their parents, so I was stuck with a bunch of adults. But everyone was nice, and Colleen was talking to me constantly so I didn't feel left out, which was really nice of her. Heh. It's kinda weird to say it, but I think I have a crush on Kirstin. It's not weird because she's a girl, it's weird because Colleen, who's Kirstin's mom, was kind of acting like she was tying to get us to go out on a date with each other before. She kept telling me about Kirstin and all that. It was just strange. But... it would be weird to date a Sophomore, considering the fact that I'm only an eighth-grader.... Well, my mom was even slightly uncomfortable TALKING about Colleen and Theresa, who are a gay couple. She asked if they were a couple when I was talking about them, then laughed when I told her yes, and went all quiet. Weird.... Alrighty, I'm done. Bye bye. TTFN!