Well, today was the first time in about two or three weeks that I didn't get an e-mail from Jordan. I'm sad. That would be okay, except for the fact that I was already feeling bummed because fucking Kyle is too fucking busy to e-mail one of his best friends that hasn't talked to him in a month! So that made me feel even worse. Ugh. I keep thinking about Ella at the prom.... She was the most beautiful thing I had ever seen.... I'm not sure if I wrote this in here (I e-mailed this to Jordan so I forget :P), so I'll write it again. She was wearing a long black backless dress. That should explain everything. I'm feeling really crummy lately. My mom has been getting on my nerves. Every time I tell her I don't feel like doing something (which isn't that often, really) she always start going on about how I don't like to hang out with her anymore, or how I never talk to her anymore. Fine. You wanna know what's going on with me, mom? Here you go. One of my best friends from last year is being a complete ass, and has been all year. I'm in love with my best friend, who doesn't love me back (at least in the way I love her). I can't concentrate on school for some unknown reason and I'm probably gonna flunk math and be put on acedemic probation. All my friends are leaving, might leave or have left, and soon everyone will be gone. And on top of it all, I'm missing Jordan, Baliegh, Amber, Kyle, and even Ceci. And I could go on, but it would just depress me more. Ugh. I didn't get a chance to get on TSO this weekend. I feel guilty. Daphinie must be freaking out, I told her I'd be online.... Oh well. I'll blame it on classes, she knows I have a lot going on.... Okay, I wanna write more, but I have to go read and go to bed. Bye.