I think back to when Kyle and I were together, and I think that I really loved him. But then I think back to what happened with Sandra... while Kyle and I were dating... and I wonder how I could do that him if I really loved him. And then when I think about Sandra herself.... I don't know if I love her, or if I'm in love with her, or if I was but still have just a little bit of feeling for her now, or if none of it is really love, just... pity. I don't know if I love her, or if I just want to help her. But either way, I don't want to feel it anymore. I want to get over it. She's put me through so much shit. I don't know why I still feel it. I really hope she doesn't read this.