Oh my god.... In three days I find out if I won the writing contest. I know I'm not gonna get it... but I'm still vervous. I'm competing against both adults and other my age, and I have no idea how good of writing they can do. Argh, I just wanna know already! Why did they have to wait until Febuary when the deadline was in November?!?!?! BASTARDS! I can't wait! It would be so cool to win the 3 grand--plus that would look so good on a resume when I'm older! It would rock to win a writing contest at the age of 13. Agh, I'm getting myself all worked up! Stop it, dammit! Okay, other than that.... I've been a little depressed lately. And it really sucks too, because I can't talk to anyone about it. The one person who really cares is the one person that's causing it. I wanna talk to Jess or my mom, but Jess doesn't want to hear about my life and mom doesn't like that subject. It's about Ella (again). And it's driving me crazy because my mom never asks me what's wrong. I like how she gives us our privacy, but sometimes it drives me insane how she doesn't ask what's bothering me when I'm so obviously depressed. It's like she doesn't care. Writing in here hasn't helped with this, either. Usually I feel better when I write in here about what's bugging me, but not with this. I want to talk to someone that can help me out, not just a computer.... Okay, one song that explains my entire existance for the last few months.... Everything you Want by Vertical Horizon. I LOVE taht song. It explains everything about me now. Ugh, I sound like an emo girl.... Yech. I'm just really tired and moody right now. I'm so frustrated with everything! Grrrrr!!!! We had testing in first and second period today. It sucked! I think it was for the No Child Left Behind thing (not the main test, just a little experiment from them). They had this ANNOYING as HELL lady come in to give it to us. She acted like we were all retarded or something! "Make sure you know how to use your calculators, class.... We don't want any confusion!" She was such a bitch. Then in PE Larry was being a fucking slave-driver! We had to run twelve laps, do 15 run-arounds and 3 sets of 40 cuts. I twisted my ankle in the middle of the run-arounds though, so I didn't have to do the cuts :P Lucky me. But it's still sore, which sucks. Trevor asked Sakae out!!! YAY! Dominic asked Carol out! GROSS!!! So now they're all dating. I think Trevor and Dominic switched personalities because Trevor's being REALLY cool lately and Dominic's been a bitch the whole year. I don't know what his problem is. I'm so fucking sick of him though! Grrrr. But Trevor is starting to freak me out. He hasn't even done one of his retarded "insults" that drive me insane! Something's seriously wrong with him.... Okay, I'm gonna go listen to Vertical Horizon some more. Buh-bye.