My stereo is haunted. It's dreeping me out. Well, it's not really HAUNTED.... It's just broken. But after watching a TV show about ghosts at ten in the morning when I'm not fully awake yet, it's really scary. For some reason it keeps turning the volume up on its own. I thought it was the speakers at first, but then I saw that the volume number on the stereo was rising and falling. God, goosebumps. Okay, Shmiffy (Rina) and I are gonna go to the Fifth Avenue Mall on Sunday :D I'm so glad, I actually get to get out of the house for a while.... I'm gona invite Chelsea and Sid (even though he doesn't show up to anything), and Zack, because Zack's coming into Anchorage tomorrow, but doesn't have time to hang out until Sunday. Tweek's leaving Friday. Which means Ryan's leaving Friday. :( I love him, he can't leave me! *sigh* oh well, maybe he'll come back next summer. Tweek will be back in September.... Um.... Well, yeah, I talked to my mom about the whole job thing, and she said that when I turn fourteen she'll help me find a job (if I don't win the contest, that is). I was thinking about entering more writing contests. Then even if I do get this contest, I'll have more money for the trip to Florida next year. Ya know, I'm not even sure I really want to go to Florida. I mean, I WANT to, but we're practically broke. I know that we're not getting much money since mom's not working right now (she's a substitute teacher), and all the money we do make is going to college funds. I don't know. I guess it depends on how many jobs mom gets this year. I was trying to find her a job yesterday so she wouldn't have to stay home during the summers, but there wasn't anything she would like to do. Oh, well. Okay. Bye bye. TTFN! *** Feeling: shitty I can't stop thinking about Jordan. He's been down in California for at least a week and the only time he called was when he was on the plane. Every little thing reminds me of him. I can't even listen to Breaking Benjamin anymore without wanting to cry. It's just not fair. I wish my mom hadn't deleted the message he left on the answering machine. I would kill to hear his voice right now. I jsut want to talk to him so badly. I feel so alone. I just wanna curl up into a ball and die. Why did he have to leave? I'm gonna go now because I feel really bad, and I would be crying all over the place if Jess and her friends hadn't just come in the door. Bye.