Feeling: depressed, confused and alone Sid's been avoiding me. I know I could be possibly jumping to conclusions, but that's what it seems like. I mean, both today and yesterday, he gave me a big hug, but he didn't say anything at all to me. Then whenever he saw me heading over to where he was hanging out (and where everyone else was hanging out) he would leave. The only thing he said to me all day was "no" when I asked him if I could barrow his hat. Okay, I know this is really dumb, but I've been crying for the last five minutes because of this and I cant seem to stop. God, why doesn't the bastard want to hang out with me? I just wish that if he was avoiding me, he would at least have the guts to say that he doesn't want to be friends anymore. At least then I would know what was going on. God, the thing that pisses me off the most is that he just started all of a sudden. No reason at all (that I can see). I don't think I did anything wrong! Why is he acting so fucking quiet around me? I just wish I knew what was going on. I'm so fucking confused!!! Tweek's doing it too, but not as much. I think Tweek was just in one of his moods today, which isn't surprising. God, whatever. Fuck Sid. If he wants to hang out, then he can come to me, and if he wants to avoid me, then to hell with him. He's not worth wasting my tears over. *** Okay, now that I'm feeling better. About my day. It was awesome, besides the whole Sid thing. We went to Quizno's for lunch. We begged Carol to come with us, but she isn't allowed out to lunch. (I feel sorry for her, her parents won't even let her go to BIBLE CAMP!!!) So it was Kelly, Tweek, Donna, Trevor and I. I was supposed to take a sevie in my counselling group out to lunch, but I couldn't find him! (He turned out to be Leanna's little brother, so I'm glad I couldn't find him....) Whatever. Trevor's actually being okay this year. Everyone matured a bit over the summer. (Everyone except Donna, who's as annoying as ever....) Billy actually isn't getting on my nerves too much so far. (I mean, just being around him bugs me, but...) So far he's said that he's hate me, said hi to me, and told Tweek he's "alright". Amazing. Tweek is the reason Billy hated me in the first place, so now Tweek is "alright" and I'm still on his hate list? Weird little fucker... Brendon broke his ankle, or something. Hehe, I'll tell you how it happened. It's exciting ;) He was skateboarding, trying to ollie off a two-story building, and he fell to the ground. Then he got his foot caught in the propeller of... something. Then a cow came along and trampled him. Mwahahaha! No, actually, he stepped off a curb and rolled his ankle.... He said he was on a skateboard, but after the cow story and the building story, I'm not sure about that... :P There are quite a few new eighth graders this year. There's one, named Toben, that went to Central before. Dominic said he knew him for seven years. He says that Toben acts just like Tweek. That's great... all we need. But Toben was wearing a Bam hat and shirt. :D Yay for Bam! Like, twnety people were wearing Bam shirts. It makes me made, because most of them don't fit girls. So I'll just have to get a Bam hat instead.... I need to get The Killers CD too. They're cool. Silent Hill 4 is out!!!! YAY!!!! Jess and I went to WalMart to buy it, but they don't have it... :( So we're gonna go to Best Buy on the weekend and get it. Oh, yeah. I e-mailed Sid, and boy, do I feel like an idiot. He replied about an hour later, saying that he was just feeling kind of... out of it, and that he wasn't mad at me or anything. I can't believe that I actually thought he was avoiding me.... Okay, I've been writing in here for too long. Bye. TTFN!