Dammit. I have way too many social things to do and way too many people to do them with. Sandra wants to come to the fair with me sometime. So does my aunt and my cousin, and they were planning on doing it tomorrow. But tomorrow was when I was supposed to go to the mall Drina, and I don't just wanna blow her off.... But Chris only comes up here for about a month each summer, so I don't get a chance to do much with her.... And now I don't know when I'm gonna have time to hang out with Sandra, even though I really want to. So Drina, I have an idea that could work for all of us, but if you don't like it, then forget it and I can tell Chris that I can't come to fair. Do you wanna come to the fair with us? If I invite Sandra along, too, then I would've taken care of all this social madness in one day :P And then we could go to the mall on Monday...? So if you don't like the idea, just forget it ;) TTFN! *** Okay, now my life now. Well.... We had a thunderstorm last night! The rain didn't last very long (here, anyways) but the lightning was wicked! I've always thought that thunderstorms were the coolest thing in nature.... But it kinda sucked, too, because it kept getting farther away :( It would be cool if it were right on us.... I know, I'm crazy, but it would be awesome. My mom wouldn't let me go outside, even though it was twelve miles away and wasn't even raining. It was ridiculous. There was no point of staying inside when something that cool is going on!!! Ummm.... I'm gonna call Sandra later and see if she can come to the mall/possibly fair. I know her family's kinda... broke, but I really hope she can, because I miss her :( Okay, I'm gonna go... do something. Bye. TTFN! *** Okay, I've been waiting for Drina to get online all morning.... I know she has a life (unlike me) but I need to talk to her about the fair/mall/whatever the hell we're gonna end up doing. It would really suck if we couldn't get it worked out before tomorrow, because I really wanna do stuff with friends and I haven't been alone with Sandra since before I told her I'm bi, and I'm still kinda worried about how she's taking it. Okay, some random thought that really bugs me. The only people that are actually comfortable talking about me being bi are my friends from school and Drina. That's it. Mom won't even look at me when I talk about it, Jess just ignores the fact that she knows it (yeah, she read it on my other diary) and Dad... doesn't know. I don't think any of my other family knows. I really don't want dad's side of the family to know, because they're even more Christian than Sandra is. Besides, I don't really get along with his side of the family. I mean, I love them, but they're more like dad's family than they are mine. It's weird. But yeah, at lunch during school, my being bi is just a typical conversation, and all the guys are cool with it. Everyone at Steller is. But then I look at Clark kids.... Carmen and Kurt and Sarah B. are cool with it too, because Carmen's cool with anything but narrow-mindedness, I think Kurt's gay, and Sarah B's openly bi too.... But everyone else is just so narrow-minded. It drives me insane. What's the big deal about it, anyway? It's not like I have the choice who I'm attracted to. And trust me, if I had the choice, I'd choose to be asexual, because that makes things so much simpler. And another thing--Bush firing federal workers because they're gay? And his brother or someone securing the votes for him in Florida? And people say he hasn't done anything wrong? And people say there's no real reason for him to be empeached? Are these people blind? Even if he hadn't done those two things, he still should've been empeached just for his pure idiocy. Apperently graduating from Yale doesn't require haven't a brain. I reeeeaaaally wanna work on my vampire story, but I have major writer's block on all my fics. I reeeaaally wanna work on All I've Got, too, but ever since Jordan moved, I've had no inspiration on that story whatsoever. That sucks. And Jordan still hasn't called. The bastard. When the fuck is he moving into his house? When the fuck can he use a fucking computer so he can send me a fucking e-mail?!?!?!?! Sorry. Good news! Jess might be getting her driver's license today! Yay! That means that she'll be driving me to school sometimes :D And that means that next week I might have a ride on Monday :D It would be so cool if she got her license today. Even though she doesn't like driving :S I dont see why she doesn't like it, I mean, she can go places on her own now, doesn't have to ride the bus to get away from mom and dad anymore.... Haha. And she could ride around with Ellen. Until summer's over, anyway :( Oh yeah, Ellen got accepted to Evergreen, so she's gonna be leaving soon. I'm sad. I'm gonna write her this whole huge letter telling her how much I love her and how she's such a big part of my life :D Seriously, I probably wouldn't be going to Steller if it weren't for her, I wouldn't be writing semi-good poetry, and I sure as hell wouldn't be as creative as I am. It's all because of her. She's the best. I just hope she doesn't forget about me :S Well, I'm gonna go sit in between the phone and the computer, waiting for Jordan to call and Drina to get online..... Haha, my life is so eventful :P TTFN! *** Feeling: pissed Fanfiction.net sucks TO FUCKING BAD!!!! I was trying to post the next chapter of All I've Got (which I've had written for a while) but they fucked the whole thing up!!!! Now I can't have a fucking cut scene! What fucking morons!!! FIX YOUR FUCKING SITE!!!!! *** I need a new background. Anyone have any cool jpg pictures they could send me?